Today was one of those days that was hectic and emotional and imperfect…and a day to remember.
Happy Birthday to me haha
A must-see to kick off my summer :)
I hate feeling stuck like this.
I honestly feel so lost right now.
Getting back home, I feel like I should be getting re-acquainted with people from high school because otherwise I’m all alone. But then that feels immature.
But then I look back at my situation at school where I lost so many girl friends this year and felt betrayed and ditched and alone a lot. I have a relationship but he’s far away and come a couple weeks from now, we’ll both only have time to talk for like a 2-hour stint each day and that’s going to be super rough because I relied on him a lot this past year for everything.
I just wish I would have been more open-minded throughout high school so I could come back to a better home base. I was such a different person in high school that I don’t feel like I fit in with my old group of friends anymore who like to sit around and play board games and watch movies and not socialize or go out and do stupid shit like the kids we are. I grew up and became more open-minded and willing to just not worry about what people thing and I can’t share that with my group of friends here.
But then again I felt really betrayed and abandoned at school too.
I’m just feeling really alone and it sucks because I don’t know what direction to go from here. Do I work to renew old friendships from high school? Or do I forget and move on? This seems so easy until you’re stuck in it. I just want to have fun this summer and not feel like I’m missing out on the best years of my life because I don’t have the same taste in friends anymore. And right now I definitely feel that way and it sucks.
I think I am the epic spill champion.
My unbeatable records so far:
1) Cinco de Mayo 2011: That was a doozy. Mixed a frickin’ delicious alcoholic beverage. Getting all ready to go out and was getting ready in Devin’s room. Dallas comes in the room and BOOM! The door knocks over my drink onto Devin’s thousand-dollar laptop. Yay.
2) Some random night out Fall 2011: Pregaming with Dallas & crew. Bottle of whipped cream vodka spills on the screen of Dallas’ thousand-dollar laptop (damn, I’m sensing a pattern here). Luckily, didn’t do anything more than make the keys sticky for a little while. Wee.
3) Today: Just finished a proud purging of my room. Found like 5 nail polishes I totally forgot I had. Go into the bathroom to show Carla. For absolutely no reason at all, the pink-ass nail polish drops out of my hand and shatters everywhere. Now THAT was fun to clean up.
I AM THE EPIC SPILL CHAMPION. HEAR ME ROAR.
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